love on the mind.

simple answer

Today at work I was really tired, I started thinking the same way I did at home. I get into work mode and just focus on the fact that I am getting a paycheck at the end of the week and I can pay my rent.

When I walk anywhere instead of putting in my headphones and zoning out I use that time to talk with God or just think about life. It is amazing how fast time goes by. When I had a car I used driving time for thinking but then when I lost the car I lost that time for me. I started noticing a difference when I would get overwhelmed by the smallest little thing.

So back to work. When I walked in to the room all the kids yelled hi Tish!! it was enough to brighten up my day. But unfortunately about an hour later I was right back to

paycheck. paycheck. paycheck.

I was sitting in the story corner and one of the kids came over to me and cuddled right into my lap and asked me to read a story it was so flippin cute. As I was reading her the gruffallo for the third time a row another one of the kids who I haven't seen in a couple weeks comes into the class and runs over to me and jumps in my arms with a big smile on his face.

I started realizing that I wasn't just working at a daycare to pay the bills but it is a place where these kids go everyday and need to have someone love on them. They don't worry about their bills, stress, relationships, and try to work out every detail of life for the next year they just have fun!

If they don't like something they cry and it is better after someone kisses the owie or if their is problem with their friend they give them a new toy and all is well in the world.

I want to be like that. Know that no matter what there is an incredibly simple answer.
The truth is I know that answer and have for a long time.

it s God

pack my suitcase!

today I decided something. For the past couple months I have been focusing on working here in bradford, why I am here and honestly myself. Not in the way that I am the center of the world but i the way that I wanted to discover who I am.

It has been good but I am wanting great! over the past two weeks life has been getting closer to the goal of "great" but i'm not quite there yet.

so today I decided to make a list of places I am going to travel to. I don't have all the places decided yet but when I do I will let you know. My goal is to go to at least 10 countries before next august. I want to say more but I have to stay realistic it may only be 5.

I know a couple of the places I want to go to. not quite all 10

1. Italy - Verona, Rome, Venice, and Tuscany are definitely musts
2. Switzerland - I want to see the alps!
3. Ukraine
4. Belgium - just so I can have belgium chocolate and belgium wafflles
5. The Netherlands - Amsterdam
6. Czech Republic - Praugue I mean hello!
7. Austria - Vienna, I am so going to the von trapp villa
8. Ireland - Dublin
9. ?
10.?

So those are my dream destinations. It seems crazy to think that only a couple months ago I was in canada. But I mean if I could get to england in the way I did, traveling around europe should be a piece of cake. So here is so travels.

The first place I am going is switzerland. I am going sometime before christmas so thats one down nine to go!

i want to see it all

I want to go to so many different places.

Verona

Sydney

Santorini

Prague

Kiev

Rome

Zurich

Barcelona

Phnom Penh

Buenos Aires

just to name a few.

The world is such a big place and I want to see it all!

Distance

one word to describe distance...

rubbish


but thanks to skype and facebook it is a little less painful.

1+1=3

I am finding out that in life things are a lot simpler than I make then out to be. It s a simple choice most of the time.

yes or no // left or right // blue or green // chicken or beef

so why is it that when making a simple decision I need to look into every detail. you hear of stories where God tells someone to do something {on of those people being me with this whole grand adventure aka. England} but I don't necessarily think God needs to give us supernatural guidance when we want to decide if we are going to have a bagel or oatmeal for breakfast.

Yes absolutely God is with us in everything that we do and gives us direction, but where is the balance exactly.

Acknowledge God in all your ways and he will direct your path,

but he can't direct us if we aren't moving.

If I just live my life and listen for God doesn't that make things so much easier than sitting on my butt waiting for goosebumps when I hear something cool?? to be honest sometimes you get goosebumps because it is cold outside does that mean cold weather is extra spiritual. I mean come on people.

It is just something that's been on my mind. stressing out is just silly. I think when you stop and analyze almost any situation stress can come. So keep on moving and eventually things will make sense and just live your life! and wherever you are will be the happiest place on earth. Not just disneyland.

makes my heart beat faster.

Sitting here, on this lonely dock
Watch the rain play on the ocean top
All the things I feel I need to say
I can't explain in any other way

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

Now here's the sun, come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
You're the one thing that I'm missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

I could have saved so much time for us
Had I seen the way to get to where I am today
You waited on me for so long
So now, listen to me say:

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
Say you feel the way I do

Party like it's 1999

This is so epic.




....it gets even better [a little boy meets world]

boom boom boom.

I could have been like almost every other girl in england and called this "baby your a fire work" but come on give me a break. If s person was a firework that would be pretty nasty. If they literally exploded it would not be a catchy pop song it would be a horrific news story. "MAN EXPLODES LIKE FIREWORK"

anyway...


so there is this holiday here in enlgand that celebrate the day that guy fawkes tried to burn down the parliment buildings in London. It is a little morbid when you think about the whole thing. I mean they have bonfires and apparently people used to make scarecrows that represented poor ol' guy fawkes and burn it. a little intense?? I think so.



Now they just have the holiday bonfire night and have a massive bonfire and fireworks. It is actually really cool. I just love fireworks in general so any excuse for them works for me.

I love this new holiday and I am defs going to bring it back to canadia. remember remember the fifth or november!

seriously.

Gabriela.

oh my goodness. I don't even know where to begin. I know one thing for sure, I am so beyond lucky to call you my friend. We only knew each other a short time and we were instant bffls haha.





I love you to pieces and can't wait to see you change the world!

Nicky

You are an inspiration. You are one of those people that have so much good inside of you but not many people are lucky enough to get to know you. They really should, you put a smile on every face you see. It isn't hard to call you a best friend. I love you Nicky Broughton!

agape

His {love} never fails.

around the world

the world is a massive place! that isn't shocking to most people it is kind of a well known fact but one thing that isn't as well known is that your dreams don't have to be confined to a single city or country. To be honest not even to a single continent.

Dream Bigger.

Life is such an amazing gift. every day is a blessing and an adventure we get to experience.

Explore the world in front of you.

don't sit and wish for all the places you want to go. Just go.



yeah life can be a little more a=complicated than that but why does it have to be??

Think.Dream.Act.

Travel the world. see far off places. do what you have always wanted to do.

Don't let anything ever stop you from dreaming, and more importantly don't let anything stop you from fulfilling your dreams.

Pow...la la la la

so I have this friend named Paula and I think she is pretty ace. There are so many things about her that i love. I would not be where I am today without her...seriously. She is one of those people that is on oprah for being the world's most amazing person and then wins a car or something crazy. A fried I am so lucky to have. Honestly one of the best.

I miss her like crazy but know that when we see each other it will be like we never were apart.

you have incredible things ahead of you my friend. never forget that.





mi corazon es tu por yo siempre

fallen leaves

today I was walking to the train station to catch my bus. It was my final day of the short uni coarse I was taking and I couldn't help but notice all the leaves on the ground.

There were so any leaves! there were so many different colors it was incredible.

It made me think about how in life it is so easy to focus on one problem or issue that comes up. Focus on one rotten leaf. When it's by itself and right in front of you it is all you see. All your focus is on that one thing. But if you take a step back and look at it as all the leaves it becomes this breathtaking piece of art. The rotten, the fresh, the big, the small, and everything in between.

It can be so hard to look at other things when it seems like the one issue is all up in your grill but when it is put into perspective it is amazing to see how quickly those things float away.

Goal for this week: Pull the rotten leaf away from my face.