Why is it so hard to be 100% honest?
even with strangers, they are never going to see me again and people that I love are going to love me anyway.
I can't count how many times I have laid in bed at night replaying scenarios in my head wishing it would have played out different. Wish I would have said something different or made a different decision.
The fear of honestly has driven me mad! I can be so wound up in the moment that I let the fear of the truth paralyze my thoughts and mediocrity comes out on top.
Most times when a person struggling with truth it is more often than not related to matters of the heart. He loves her but she doesn't love him or she loves him but he is in love with someone else. I get that, I have lived that, but honesty and the human expression of words is so much more than romantic confusion.
How many times have you had a dream or utterly insane idea but you are too scared to tell anyone so you suppress the passion and settle for a more 'realistic' plan.
I wish I would have taken time to listen to the whisper in my heart and the invaluable wisdom of God in times of confusion, rather than follow impulse out of impatience and anxiety.
I do not regret decisions in my life because my life kicks ass! The path I have taken has has twists and turns, bumps and bruises. I have traveled through the valleys and rested on the mountain top to take in the view and appreciate the beauty in life.
The memories I have are magnificently invaluable, all coming together to paint a masterpiece that is still to be completed.
I want to continue on this course with words of truth on my lips and a heart full to the brim with a burning love for people.
even with strangers, they are never going to see me again and people that I love are going to love me anyway.
I can't count how many times I have laid in bed at night replaying scenarios in my head wishing it would have played out different. Wish I would have said something different or made a different decision.
The fear of honestly has driven me mad! I can be so wound up in the moment that I let the fear of the truth paralyze my thoughts and mediocrity comes out on top.
Most times when a person struggling with truth it is more often than not related to matters of the heart. He loves her but she doesn't love him or she loves him but he is in love with someone else. I get that, I have lived that, but honesty and the human expression of words is so much more than romantic confusion.
How many times have you had a dream or utterly insane idea but you are too scared to tell anyone so you suppress the passion and settle for a more 'realistic' plan.
I wish I would have taken time to listen to the whisper in my heart and the invaluable wisdom of God in times of confusion, rather than follow impulse out of impatience and anxiety.
I do not regret decisions in my life because my life kicks ass! The path I have taken has has twists and turns, bumps and bruises. I have traveled through the valleys and rested on the mountain top to take in the view and appreciate the beauty in life.
The memories I have are magnificently invaluable, all coming together to paint a masterpiece that is still to be completed.
I want to continue on this course with words of truth on my lips and a heart full to the brim with a burning love for people.
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