Come To Me

I love songs that give you goosbumps, in just seconds your heart feels refreshed and you know God is right there with you. This is definitely one of those songs. 

I am the Lord your God,
I go before you now.
I stand beside you
I’m all around you
And though you feel I’m far away
I’m closer than your breath
I am with you
More than you know

I am the Lord your peace
No evil will conquer you
Steady now your heart and mind
Come into my rest
And oh, let your faith arise
And lift up your weary head
I am with you
Wherever you go

Come to me, I’m all you need
Come to me, I’m everything
Come to me, I’m all you need
Come to me, I’m your everything

I am your anchor, in the wind and the waves
And I am your steadfast, so don’t be afraid
Though your heart and flesh may fail you
I’m your faithful strength
And I am with you
Wherever you go

Life is a beautiful thing

Life is a beautiful thing.

It isn't something we endure,

it is something we get to experience and enjoy.

Today I was reminded by some of the most beautiful people I know the importance of our choices. The choices we make will determine the amount of joy we let flow into our lives. We have the choice to let our situations get the better of us or to teach us. The fact that life may not be exactly how we want it be can destroy our hope and leave us apathetic and broken OR in a moment of boldness we can choose to get a different perspective and take every moment for what it is, an opportunity to love the life you live. It is never going to be perfect or run flawlessly but the times we need help getting through, we can lean on those God has placed around us.

I was reminded of the incredible and priceless people I have the privilege of doing life with. It isn't about a special formula or always saying the right thing and in our case where in the world we are, it is about love. Being accepted and loved is a gift I have been given by four amazing women who I look up to and love beyond words.

Where I am in this moment may not have been something I could have predicted but the blessings I have are countless. I am so unbelievably grateful for what I have and I am eagerly anticipating the future knowing I have amazing people along for the journey.

-- love you PB.GT.CH.NB --

Train away

As I sweat like a man running on the treadmill I was thinking as always about the deeper meanings of life. There are things we do in life that have purpose like taking care of ourselves by investing in people, our health, working so we can have a house, eat and live. So many things we do to live a happy life. We work so hard to make things happen, make our lives the best we can so we get to the next best place.

While I walk longer and longer I am getting absolutely nowhere on the treadmill but I am sweating nasty toxins out of my body and keeping my heart ticking. No matter if I run for 5 minutes or an hour it will seem like I haven't went anywhere, no distance whatsoever but the machine tells me I have ran miles. I don't immediately see the good it's doing me but I know that it will pay off.

Sometimes God puts us in situations where we feel like we are running as fast as we can, our tank is nearly on empty but we are in the exact same place. Our circumstances are the same but we are even more worn out.What I have learned is that sometimes we have to go through a training season. We are building ourselves so when the time is right we have prepared ourselves to run the race God has called us to run.

It doesn't always make sense and it can hurt a lot but trust me Go always comes through and when you see the result and the amazing blessings it will so be worth it.

Regardless of what you feel or think God will always do things to build you up and do things to give you an incredible life. Trust in him and jut watch what he can do.

I shall but love thee better after death.

It was my birthday this week and I decided to get myself a FANTASTIC book as a present. A beautiful collection of love poems written by poets like the Bronte's, Keats, Blake, Shelly and my absolute favorite Elizabeth Barrett Browning.

The way her passion bursts from inside her to paint such a beautiful picture in just a few words takes my breathe away. Her beloved husband was her muse, inspiring her to write poetry that would leave me in awe 150 years after she wrote it. I have read sonnet XXIII about a thousand times and every time I read it I get butterflies and can't help but smile. It is one of the most popular love poems ever written playing a huge part in the legacy Elizabeth has left behind. 

I am not a poet, a writer or even decent at coloring in the lines. I don't have millions of followers on twitter or paparazzi following me around, I am no one of huge significance in society. I am however Letitia Andreas and that is pretty freaking cool if you ask me. I don't know what my dreams are, I don't know where I want to be in 10, 20 or 30 years heck I don't even know where I want to be in 5! I do know that I want to leave a legacy. 

My goal isn't to be famous but to be known as a person who loved. Love is the only thing in the world that has always been and will always be. This year has a clean slate, even though it is 11 days in and I feel like I am ready for a fresh start already I know that this year will be another year of adventure and new stories. I have made promises to myself that this year will be different and the only one who can make it an awesome year is me so this year I am making a choice. 

I will love the unloved

I will pursue life with everything I am 

I will take risks and not hold back 

I will not be defined by my past 

I will be filled to the top with joy

I will just be me 

The last line of sonnet XXIII is I shall but love thee better after death and that is my desire. I pray the love God has put in my heart will pour out of me and into people around me and create a chain reaction of people outrageously loving people. This will be my legacy.

secret garden

*How am I supposed to dream big when my secrets and dreams are locked away so deep in my heart that I don't even know where they are. God is the only one who knows how to fix it, he has the key to unlock the happiness that is so far gone. My true heartache is seeping out, pushing the artificial smile off my face. 

My life is great, I have so many things to be thankful for but it's just not the life I want to be in. The stories of adventure I want are no where near the mediocre production I am acting out. 

God has big things planned, waiting to find out what they are and who I am supposed to be is infuriating. It is time for the walls of my secret garden to come down and the beauty inside to be revealed, I just need to find the key.