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stress level chart for today

9:00am-12:00pm 0/10
1:00pm-2:00pm 4/10
3:00pm-6:00pm 2/10
7:00pm-11:00pm 11/10
current -5/10 oooooooo yeah :)

expect...ations

in situations I hope for the best, hoping that the outcome will be good. unfortunately that doesn't always happen. Lately I have been realizing that plans are good but sometimes we have to just trust that things will work out. That God actually is in control of the stuff we can't figure out.

Plans are things we have to be comfortable and while yes they are good sometimes they create even more confusion.

if an expected situation turns out to be something COMPLETELY different getting wigged out is the first response. Focusing on the fact that if this didn't work out, whatever happens instead has to be better. The crud may be pourin down like crazy but eventually the rain stops and so will your crappy situation.

if you let your expectations be dependent on what God has instead of what you think is going to happen it will so turn out wicked awesome.

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STORY TIME!

why did I come up with this?? long story short...boy and girl are friends nothing more...girl talks to friends who suggest hanging out is a date...girl gets nervous...boy and girl hangout... hello awkward moments and a million questions...resulting in unsure expectations...woo hoo

butterflies??

a thought came to my mind today...why is it that when we get that wierd feeling inside when we talk to our "special friends" we call it butterflies? yes I understand that people say that it is because it feels like butterflies in your stomach but I think that is quite silly. Really you smile so big your face hurts and occasionally your cheeks get all red and you feel more like you are going to throw up more than anything. It is kind of more like the flu but you are happy :p

buuuuuuut....I LOVE IT!! when you get the "happy flu" you feel like your life could be in a movie. You pick out EVERY little thing.from talking to teenagers I have learned this. When a person looks at you in the street or even talking to a friend, it is normal for them to look at you. but oh ho ho when your crush looks at you when you talk that is pretty much a sign from the Lord... they are pretty much asking you to marry them and already have your first three childrens names ready to go.

It is thoroughly amuzing and as many times as we deny the "happy flu" to be truly honest you allllll know it's happened to you.

Message From Your Heart

i am very much in like with this song...it makes my heart smile and makes me think of the lovely Chanel. One day she will be famous and I can say that we sang together in my beast of a car Hector.
Seriously look up this song, it will make you so happy
it will feel as if you have unicorns flying in your brain :)

Don't break me, I bruise easily
The source of both your love and misery

I am steady, beating endlessly
While you are dozing, dreaming pretty things
Lovely things

I don't work for free
Please take care of me

This is a message from your heart
Your most devoted body part
Taking blood and making art
This is a message from your heart
Pounding away into the dark
You could thank me for a start
This is a message from your heart

Don't hurt me, I bleed constantly
My efforts leave me but flow back swiftly

My rhythm, soothing, like raindrops steady
On foggy windows when you gaze outwardly
Peacefully

I don't work for free
Please take care of me
Please take care of me

This is a message from your heart
Your most devoted body part
Taking blood and making art
This is a message from your heart
Pounding away into the dark
You could thank me for a start
This is a message from your heart

Everytime you sleep
Everytime you eat
Everytime you laugh
Everytime you cry
Every time you love

This is a message from your heart
Your most devoted body part
Taking blood and making art
This is a message from your heart
Pounding away into the dark
You could thank me for a start
This is a message from your heart