In life we make decisions every minute or every day. we can decide to eat cereal or eat toast for breakfast. or whether we are going to have our hair up, down, curly, or straight. The list could go on and on. then there are other decisions that are a little harder to decide, do we listen to what our head is telling us or listen to what our heart is telling us. More times than not what are head tells us is the easy way out. But we still wrestle with the though even though we know that when we follow our heart the outcome is generally more beneficial. We can decide to let our circumstances overwhelm us and let what other people say determine which way we go or we can take the path that is a little harder to journey along. And be patient and wait. Most times when something involves waiting it takes longer because the greatness of whatever we are waiting for need to develop. This can be as crucial as the "perfect" job or a relationship or something as small as a line up at mcdonalds or at the movie theater.

The choice however is up to us, when we are standing at the cross road do we wait and follow our heart or jump in when it is convenient and miss out on incredible so we can settle for good in the moment. I want to live a life that is all about following my heart but more specifically the passions and desires that God has put in my heart.


I have spent way to much time staying focused on the waiting and not enough time just living life and enjoying what I have in the here and now. The time will come when it is time to jump in without even a second thought but for now it s time to wait and you know what...I amok with that because I know that the God that created the universe is completely, utterly, and totally in control of everything! he knew the entire layout and plan of my life before time began. I think someone like that is more than capable of taking care of my needs. he is so fippen amazing and I am so happy to have a God that is alive and cares about me :)

poop

this cupcake actually looks like poo

an angry puppy saw the cupcake and thought

"hmm I think I am going to poo on this"

straight up

i would love to be able to say that life is peachy, that i am loving just doing life. unfortunately that isn't the case at the moment. don't get me wrong i am happy and so loving the things i am getting to do in england but flip me is it tough. i love the people, my church, even the city as much as people hate on bradford. the hard part has become money and trusting. it is a constant roller coaster of being awesome and stressed to the max. and the fact that money is becoming a more and more foreign object to me.

the 26th of each month when i know i have to pay my rent is faithfully the most stressful day of the month. the first couple months were alright because of my savings but now that that has been gone for a while it is causing more and more frustration. trying to get a job has been something i have been trying to do for months now and it just isn't happening for me. that gets me even more frustrated because of the fact that i feel dumb with how long i have been job hunting. if i was hunting for food instead of a job i would be a dead hunter. i am at the point where i don't know what to do next. God knows everything that is going to happen and is in control so i should be able to just chill out, but when my bank account is in the negative it kinda makes it INSAINLY hard to trust him. hopefully the next couple days start looking up job wise but until then chocolate and my bible are my closest companions...and maybe a little jb (yes justin bieber)

tru dat

*sigh

Sometimes doing the right thing is so freaking hard.

Happy Australia Day

I meant to do this a couple days ago but
I was uber busy and kinda went
to sleep instead.

\\\HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUSTRALIA!

on January 26th it was Australia Day and being that it is such an amazing place I thought it deserved a place on an awesome blog.

//First off it is an amazing place due to the people that live in its beautiful cities. Some of my favorites are from this country and I am quite thankful for them.

//Second the world famous hillsong church is in this country. There are so many influential men and women of God that have given their lives to serve him and inspire me through their teaching and music.

//Thirdly it has recently reminded me that no matter what is going on in life be thankful. Queensland has been devastated by floods over that past little while and it has been so humbling to see how a place so beautiful has turned into a place where people have had their homes destroyed and ultimately lives changed forever. Some people have even lost loved ones all from one unexpected event. A serious reallity check to be thankful for what I have even when it feels like life can be rough. Never take it for granted.

Six Monthaversary

today marks six months of me living in the UK...England...Bradford

Where to even start oh my goodness!

I have met so many incredible people, I am truly blessed.

The opportunities I have had have blown my mind

I am still so shocked at the thought of me being here

This experience has been so mind blowing

I have learned so much about my God and myself

I wouldn't trade it for the world

it has definitely without a doubt been a challenge

but an unbelievable adventure

100th post

woohoo!!

it is my 100th post!!

to make this one of the best ever

I am going to put my favorite

-song-
-movie-
-food-
-picture-

well of the day anyway.

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this one is such an amazing photo. I love stars they are my favorite thing in the world beside God.

I am in love with this photo

airplanes

every time I see an airplane it reminds me of how insainly amazing God is. He brought me to such an amazing place in a way only he can. today there seemed to be even more than usual, when I got home I looked out my window and I could see 6. it may seem like no big deal but i thought it was so amazing! so amazing in fact I thought I would blog about it.

i'll be there for you

For the past couple weeks I have been watching all of the seasons of friends. I have got thru seasons 1-6 and half way thru season 7. It is crazy that a show went for 10 seasons and is still as popular as it is. Usually I get really attached to the characters but all it really makes me think of is how my friends are so awesome. We didn't necessarily sit in the same coffee shop all the time but instead we hung out at Church, Starbucks, and McDonalds. Which is so much better! I can't wait until we can all be together again, go for drives listening to music, go to the beach in whiterock, and party it up! I am starting to see some similarities between some of the characters and my friends but mine are still better. So much better in fact that I live over 7 000 miles away and I still have them as my bff's i love them!

once

oh my goodness! i watched the movie once tonight and it has changed my life! such an incredible soundtrack i can't even stand it. here is some of my faves.

lets be happy

life is going to have ups and downs. sometimes things will be great and other times they will be tough. in any situation that might come along there is a choice you can let it bring you down, or you can choose to see the positive. even when it seems like there is no way things can get any better. just choose to be happy. regardless of the situation.

i so happy

today was tuesday which means it was life group day!

it was the first lifegroup since before christmas, and it was honestly the best one to date.

we all just hung out, talked about life, and played wii :)

i love the girls i get to do life with! i can't wait till our next lifegroup.

honestly i wish it was tomorrow and then again the next day.

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it is amazing how in such a short time i can grow to care about these girls. they have such amazing hearts and beautiful faces to match. i can't wait to see all the things they are going to do this year. most likely change the world.

We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps

favour and peace

There are some things in life that I have wondered about for so long. Why is it that some people have so much favor in certain areas of their life that make it seem as if they don"t ever have to worry about where their rent is coming from or ever worry about where their next meal is coming from. They have a job that they love or even if they don't love it at least it pays the bills.

I have had to learn this in a very different way the past little while. I have loved learning how God works in so many ways. He is the same God but has so many different aspects. There are times when I am slightly jealous of other people in my life and how things seem to fall into place for them. But I know that there have been so many times in my own life where things have fallen into place for me that I know as frustrating and scary as it can be to wait, it is always a million times better when it is in his timing. When I start freaking out a little I always read a verse in my favorite book.

Don't worry about anything;instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. {Phil 4:6-7}

It sucks now BUT I am so excited for when I see it all come together. I just hope the job part comes soon... or I could just find some magic beans.

new fave

I found this new font and I love it! it is classic but modern all at the same time. It is narrow like ariel narrow but still has enough curvature almost like helvetica but no serifs. it is called lane and my favorite font at the moment.

Over The Rainbow (ukulele cover)

So I have this friend and she is very talented. I think the world should see her sing because not only can she sing like an angel but she loves Jesus! Miss Emeline Viotti you are amazing!

guido

I have a little brother and yes he is a guido. Am I proud of this fact? mmm not so much do I still love him? mmm YES!!! I miss him like crazy and I wish I could hug him right this second. I have barely spent any time taking with him since I moved to England which really sucks. BUT today I finally got to see his face and catch up. Now all he has to do is come and see me and the world will be happy. It is great that even though it has been so long since we have seen each other I still know everything because that is how family works. No matter what happens they are always there for you. Even when you are at your worst and don't think you need people or feel that they have let you down they are there.

Little Brother, you know how much you mean to me. Even though I am an ocean away I still know everything that goes on in your head because I love you more than anything :p I am always here for you, don't ever forget that little man.

you so wish your brother was as cool as mine!

Toilet!

yayaya!!! today my toilet seat was finally fixed! it was completely broken so anytime I sat down the seat would slide around. So now it is fixed and it makes me happy!!

booooooots

It was recently brought to my attention that apperently my boots look like the boots in shrek.

I don't see it but they are still awesome.But really dirty.

that didn't make me smile

Today I had to say goodbye to my dad at the train station and it was definitely not a fun thing at all. He came to visit before he went back to Canada, and he was here for almost exactly 24 hours which was not nearly enough time to make up for the 5 1/2 months of not being able to see him. Thoughts of going back to canada were in my mind at that moment for sure. Goodbyes hold a very firm position in my top 5 least favorite things in the world along with clowns and human trafficking. There have been some instances where I use the saying "small world" today that was the last thing that i was feeling. When I said goodbye to my dad it felt like the world couldn't be bigger. The most confusing part is I love it in England so much that regardless of where I am living I am going to miss someone or something. It is the strangest feeling when I am so conflicted about where I want to be. If it wasn't for God I am pretty sure I would be a complete at total wreck but thankfully he is always there so I always have a best friend with me.

summed up.

home

i miss Canada.

Cake Faces continued

Woot Birthday

birthday goodness yes I got cake in my face

2 decades check

Happy Birthday to me!

today is my birthday! meaning two decades ago I was born, at Burnaby Memorial Hospital on 13750 96th Ave Surrey, BC V3V 1Z2, Canada in maternity ward room 2.

So far life has been amazing! I have done so much and been able to see so much, I can't wait for the next 20 years and see all that life has to offer. Most importantly all that God has planned.

I want to thank every single person who is in my life and for all that you have done or me. I have been so encouraged and inspired by all of you. I miss you bunches.

love you xx

Canucklehead

I am a Cancklehead! and proud of it, I miss watching hockey SO BAD.

Playradioplay Mr.Brightside

I have been looking for this song for almost a year and I finally found it! I am so freaking stoked :D

V-J Day in Times Square

I love this photo!

it is one of my favorite ever, not just because of the spontaneity of it or the fact that the people are unknown or even that it is ridiculously romantic. It is all of that and more. This photo was taken on August 14, 1945 when the end of world war 2 was announced.

A photographer named Alfred Eisenstaedt, Like many others he was in times square celebrating the end of the war. Eisenstaedt made two accounts of the kiss in his books, He said that he was running around when he saw a sailor going thru the crowds kissing every girl in sight. He had his back turned when he saw a flash of white he turned around and took 4 pictures to capture what he saw.

The picture was first published in LIFE magazine a week later.

The question that has always bothered me has been the identity of the kissers. 11 men and 3 women have claimed to be the people in the photo. There has been some pretty intense tests done to try to see who it really is but personally I think that as great as it would be knowing it is even better not knowing. One guy who claims that it as him even identified his wife in the background. Another guy says that his birthmark and tattoos match but come on I could say I knew justin bieber doesn't mean it is true, and tattoo dude I don't see any tattoos and your "birthmark" could have been dirt for all I know. its a black and white photo.

Anyway the beauty of this photo is the pure shock of the women, people can doubt the fact of the spontaneity of the picture but number one the photographer has proof...the original film.
I mean look at the way she is standing, someone expecting a kiss does not react like that.

This photo is pure beauty.

flip I love it

There is no world without Verona walls...
Heaven is here, where Juliet lives.

Shakespeare

mr.postman

I love getting mail! Especially mail from Canadian friends

cop fail

haha fail.

friendships

miss you guys.

First Love

I love my church! This song was written by Jock James one of the most passionate worship leaders I have ever seen. Never forget your first love, God chose you for a specific reason. He has a plan and purpose for your life, he just wants to love you. He can never love you more or love you less. God is love.

its not about us

Seriously God is so incredible. Today I was a little bummed out and Matthew 17:20 came to mind. No matter what situation or mountain is in your way God is so much bigger than anything. We don't have to fight and fight to work through it, we just have to give it to God. God said "Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”It is not about us fixing the problem it is about us giving God control and having faith that he can do it. The God that created the universe and every fiber of your being has your world in his hands. Even when it can be tough we just have to let go and have the smallest amount of faith and daddy God will take it from there. I am so thankful to have a God that cares. A God that is alive today and will always be there, he will never leave and never let me down. The God that never fails is My God.

goodness

Mom

Happy Birthday Mom!

I so wish I could be there to give you a birthday hug and tell you in person how much I love you. I hope your day was amazing and people made you feel extra special. You are such an incredible mom, daughter, aunt, and friend. I pray that this year is the best yet! I miss you so much and cant wait to see you. *muah*

Gap Yah

this video = love // oh and a gap year is something English people do the year after they grad bt dubs

our God is greater

This year of 2011 I am believing for a miracle. I know that I serve a miracle working God who can do anything. I know that this year one of my best friends the one and only Michael Kraan is going to have a full recovery. My God is bigger than any injury or sickness.

Mike I miss you like crazy, I miss our chats and bugging you about how long you take to respond to texts. I know that this year will be a long road but there are people all over the world praying for you and backing you up %150.

Easy A

Ok so I recently watched Easy A and it is now one of my favorite movies. It is so funny! I laughed to tears numerous times. these are some of my favorite quotes.

Rhiannon: You're being pretty cavalier about this. Aren't you supposed to be eternally in love with him?
Olive Penderghast: Yes... I believe so, if I was the Gossip Girl in Sweet Valley of the Traveling Pants.

Mrs. Griffith: [about Micah] He's not the sharpest Christian in the bible.

Olive Penderghast:What is with you gays? Are you really that repulsed by lady parts? What do you think I have down there? A gnome?

Olive Penderghast: Whatever happened to chivalry? Does it only exist in 80's movies? I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window. I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey. I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me. I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me. Just once I want my life to be like an 80's movie, preferably one with a really awesome musical number for no apparent reason. But no, no, John Hughes did not direct my life.

luna

No matter where we are in the world there is one thing we will always have to share.

so long teens hello twenties!

It is almost my birthday!

No more being a teenager
woot woot!

Girlfriend - Seeing Stars

This was on a commercial and I thought it was really cute. It made me think of the lovely Gabbi Tarves <3

2011

For one of the first times in my life I am so excited for the new year! Not that 2010 hasn't been amazing, I am just so excited for what is to come I have spent time thinking back about what happened in 2010, it was a crazy year.

I moved to the England - I bought a car - I went to Rome, Milan, Kyiv, Dnepropetrovsk, London, and Manchester - I met my bff Chanel - I got so much closer with 3 extraordinary girls PB.GT.NB - and so much more!

Last year was so incredible I have no idea how this year could get better but I am stoked to see it unfold.

Hears to 2011!

I love Brie

i love brie

Marry Me

{James Anthony Sturgess}

You are blessed in the facial region.

Please Marry Me

I recently saw this amazingly attractive man in the movie The Way Back and I was quite impressed not only was he an incredible actor he was fighting against russians. He just keeps on getting better and better. If you dont believe me go see it for yourself, and if you can handle musicals see Across the Universe. The movie where I first fell in love with this stud muffin.

biebatron

To my One Love,

Searching is so wrong, I'm Mr. Right (2)
You're used to goin' out your way
To impress these Mr. Wrongs
But you can be yourself with me
I'll take you as you are (1)
I don't need too much
Just somebody to love (4)
Whenever you knock me down
I will not stay on the ground (6)
I will fight 'til forever
To make it right (6)
If you need me, I'll come running from a thousand miles away (9)
'Cause whenever you smile, I smile (9)
Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop stop (8)
Don't need these other pretty faces like I need you (7)
I'll show you what you're worth (7)
And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure (8)
I'll buy you anything, I'll buy you any ring (3)
I'm gonna' cherish every moment
'Cuz it only happens once, once in a lifetime (5)
And we will never ever ever be apart (10)

Love JB



Yes all those words are lyrics from Jutin Bieber songs, oh snap. No that didn't take me very long I am not that pathetic. To prove it the numbers are at the bottom for reference haha. I can picture Paula laughing now.

1. Favorite Girl
2. Eenie Meenie
3. Love Me
4. Somebody to Love
5. First Dance
6. Never Say Never
7. One less Lonely Girl
8. One Time
9. U Smile
10. Baby